Active v/s Passive

I've cut myself from blogging for a while. It was an unintentional break. For someone who thinks she knows her priorities, I've been left wondering. I've been distracted. I've kept my distance. I almost forgot, until I listen to "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin. She mentioned that she started a blog on a whim to take some action. It reminded me of my personal blog. 

This is one thing I realise. What you don't use, you lose. I've got caught up with random things in my life and the next thing. I lost my routine. I lost my feet, and once you get your way out of something, it's like it never happened. 

Also, if something feels like a burden you shouldn't really do it. I feel it's counterproductive. Of course, sometimes you have to push yourself, get yourself back into it. There should be a balance between what is right and not right for you. 

For me, I really enjoyed blogging, putting my thoughts into writing and sharing. I do journal every day. It's a daunting task thought to put things out there "on the cloud"- for whoever to read.

I had to ask myself why? Why do I want to blog? Why did I start it? Were my reasons legitimate? What do I want from it?

I came up with a few reasons:

• I want to share lessons, concepts, ideas I've come across
• I want to contribute, make a positive contibution in the world.
• I want to have a place where I can always come back when I need to (words of inspiration, wisdom)
• I want to build a creative outlet for my thoughts 
• Personally, I feel like this is also a place for me to get out of my shell. To be able to share. It's something I need to do.
• I want to remember, organise my ideas into one place ( I tend to have some many notes here and there).
• It's a way to be active instead of passive. Passive is simply just taking in information, watching on the sidelines, ie. not doing anything with what you've learned. Again, I'm constantly reminded of the saying 'What you don't use, you lose" (I have to admit, this scares me a lot). Being active means taking action. Become a maker. Instead of reading, write. Instead of watching cooking shows, cook. Instead of watching instagram feeds, post. Build something, create something. 

Lately, I feel like I was simply going through the days, keeping myself busy doing things. Was I really busy? No, I was filling my time with passive activities, and believing I was using my time effectively. I'm not going as far as to say that I was wasting my time, but I could be making more things rather. It's great that I caught myself red-handed. It's a real sign that something needs to be changed. 

I have my routine and a list of habits that I try to incorporate into my daily life. I believe that these are what make my days feel worthwhile, especially during days when I feel like I haven't done much. 

So, if I have, at least, been able to do a few things (consistently, which will be beneficial in the long run) in a day, then that's it. I can go to bed peacefully. There's so much one can do. It's all about finding the right balance between being active and passive. It's okay to be passive because of the incubation period that we all go through. I strongly believe that all that we do and go through serve a purpose- sometimes not so obvious- because, one day, out of nowhere it helps us. 

However, bearing in mind all that I just wrote, I'll try to make it a habit of making more things. Action is the best way to learn, remember, practice, contribute to the world and leaving a mark.