This is going to be an honest open letter about what I've been through lately. For a long time, I felt like I was trying but not able to contribute. There is a lot of fear surrounding what I want to create. I stumble, I fall, I rise. It's a never-ending battle. When the mind is in play, there is always a resistant of thoughts. My thought patterns haven't been the most positive. I was a bit harsh on myself. Actually, it's like I don't know what I was doing. I was lost. I get shivers writing this. It's like these new year resolutions. You have so much hope in the future. They hardly ever come true. This is the problem: to not live in the future. I try though. To live in the present, be mindful. Let go of the past. I've read so much. This is a bit contradictory in a way. I'm constantly looking for the next book that is going to help me. Which is telling my self that I'm not okay. I'm relying on external support to make me feel bet...
This is a call for action. Lately, I've been consuming endlessly, immensely, and terribly. I've been devouring books and information so much that I spare no time for action. My mind was telling me I don't know enough, I don't have the right information. Now the paradox here is that the more you consume, the less knowledgeable you feel. You realise there is so much that you are clueless about. This create a vicious circle of unlimited consumption. The internet contains an infinite amount of information, so there is actually no end to the amount of information you can acquire. However, there is a limit to how much you can take and retain. I feel like I've reached a point where I was simply wandering, not focusing. It's like I was eating, but never feeling satiated. I mean it's an awesome thing to be a continuous and avid learner and reader, until it takes away all attention from doing. Also, by continuously consuming information one after the other, I ha...