Everyone is on their own journey and path at various stages of life. We are all different and unique. We are the only ones who know what goes behind closed doors, what's happening inside of us. Sometimes it's peace and sometimes it's turmoil. You cannot only have one or the other. It's okay to feel emotional, to have irrational thoughts or lose your temper. You don't have to stay this way though. You have the choice to accept those and move on.