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Uneasiness

I have to admit I don't find it easy to deal with the unexpected. I spend far too much time worrying about what not and this prevent me from enjoying the present moment. My mind tend to deeply focus on the unknown future 'what might happen' and even though I know it's wrong, I can't let go of that 'knot'  feeling against my chest. It's almost impossible to get rid of that uneasiness.

It especially occurs when I'm going to do something new, life is dependent on factors I can't control and I feel scared.

My mind feels like it is in danger and I'm on full alert.

I haven't yet found a solution but all I can do is continue be present and know firmly that I can handle anything and that everything happens for a reason.

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